Autumn looked down at
the street below watching all those sheeple going about their stupid, pathetic,
daily tasks. How could they do it? How could they fall for the lies and the
propaganda? Look at all those rolls of Christmas wrapping paper and plastic
bags filled with plastic packaging. The world was going to hell in a handcart
and people were just shopping like everything was normal. Carry on like this
and the world would open up and swallow everyone.
But it didn’t have to
be like that. If everyone shunned the system like she did, then the whole
capitalist construct would collapse and change would come. Mother nature would
no longer be angry and the threat of Armageddon would recede. People needed to
wake up, smell the vegan bacon of reality. Stop being slaves to the wage, stop
taking orders from governments who don’t have their best interests at heart,
stop handing over their taxes the man
and start looking after the planet again. Become free. Autumn was free. Free as
a bird.
But nobody listened to her.
They thought she was the mad one.
Thought that she was the eccentric.
most of them called her a nutter and walked away, some of them listened to what
she had to say, but she could see in their eyes that they thought she wasn’t
quite all there; patronising bastards, they were worse than the name callers.
But she was telling the truth, and that’s what kept her going.
She turned away from
the window and dropped the last capsule into her Nespresso machine. She’d have
one more coffee and then get out there and spread the word. She sipped her
coffee and opened her MacBook Air. Facebook reminded her that it was Thursday
and the vintage clothes market was on in town. She needed a new coat. She
didn’t mind that she spent thirty pounds more for the coats on the market, at
least the money wasn’t going into some sweat shop in Laos. She’d nip to the
market first and then start giving out the leaflets that she’d promised her
friend Martha she’d distribute on the streets of Cardiff.
They looked good those
leaflets, and sure most of them would end up blowing in the wind, but if just
one person read all about the ‘Cruelty of Christmas’, then her day would have
been worthwhile. Oh, Martha was cool. It was Martha who told Autumn all about
the world swallowing itself. She hadn’t told Autumn exactly when this would
happen, but she’d promised her it would soon unless people threw off the
shackles of conformity. If Autumn was honest, she would say she had a bit of a
woman crush on Martha, she was everything that Autumn wanted to be, clever,
eloquent, slim and pretty, a perfect woman.
“No, no, no, fuck.” Autumn
picked the computer up as quick as she could but the coffee she’d just knocked
over had already begun to seep into the workings. A crackle and a fizz, then a
hiss and a moan, the screen turned to blue and then black and the computer was
no more.
“Fuck, shit, wank,
bollocks.” why did it always happen to her. the bloody world hated her. She
half felt that powers were working against her, working to eliminate her. That
somehow the system had made her spill her coffee. But she had them beat;
everything was backed up two or three times and she could easily replace the
computer; she wouldn’t let a little spillage ruin her plans.
“Dad, Can I have some
money? I need a new computer.”
She wandered back over
to the window.
“I split coffee on it.
It is fuc… completely broken.”
She smiled, even over
Facetime it was a killer smile. Her dad would be online sorting out a new
computer for his little angel in no time as all.
“What?”
Her face creased into a
frown.
“But dad I…”
She bit her little
finger, that always worked on her father.
“How am I supposed to
live?”
A tear ran down her
face, she threw her phone across the room and it bounced up on to her rather
nice Laura Ashely couch.
Fuck, shit, wank,
bollocks. The system had obviously got through to her father. Brainwashed him.
Turned him against her. That meant it was getting closer to her. Soon she too
would be reprogrammed; made into a robotic sheeple. How was she going to buy a
new computer now? How was she going to buy that new coat? Or buy new coffee.
She was going to have to get a j.. j.., she couldn’t bring herself to say it.
No! That was exactly what they wanted. Once she got a job, they would start to
grind her down; the indoctrination could begin.
Autumn walked around in
a daze. She held the leaflets, but she wasn’t getting rid of them. She just
walked here and there, there and here. She couldn’t believe that her father
could have been influenced by them. How could he betray his own flesh and blood
in favour of that anonymous machine? She felt like Winston in 1984; the system
closing in on her. She wished the earth would swallow them all now. That would
teach them, that would prove her right and them wrong. She shivered in her
holey coat.
Autumn put her right
foot down and felt the earth disappear beneath her. She heard a sound like a
giant’s trousers ripping and was aware she was falling, falling. It was
happening the world was swallowing itself. She felt something hit her arm, then
her leg then a huge piece of concrete smashed into her head.
Passers-by rushed to
the new hole in the road. They got as close as they dared and peered into the
abyss, but there was nothing they could do to save the strange looking woman
who had fallen into the sinkhole.
Sad but very nicely written
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