This is parts 1-3 of a story that started nearly a year ago and was continued last week. For this to work it needed parts 1 and 2 included. There is no recording with this story for obvious reasons. This story carries a light red warning.
She looked over the balcony at the floor below
and watched him talking with his friends. Animated, aggressive, forceful he
sat low in his chair, legs akimbo. His Mohican hair a statement, his eyes
burned a ‘don't mess with me’ look. He twirled a pen in his fingers as he
spoke, the notebook in front of him chocka with ideas. Louise felt her knees
go weak as she watched his alpha-male display.
She tried to remain in the conversation with
her friends but it was easier said than done as a small blush of excitement
ran down her spine as it always did whenever she saw him. She doubted he had
ever even noticed her, and if he had only in an aggressive class warfare type
way. She was just a pretty little rich kid, porcelain features, perfect
hair, perfect teeth. She had seen the contempt with which he had looked at
her ‘crowd’; she'd seen that look 100 times before from 100 different working
class heroes; first one up against the wall come the revolution.
She hated the cliched nature of it, a posh
girl's desire for a bit of rough, that something that was always just that
little bit out of reach. It was so Bronte. But she couldn't help herself. She
wondered what James would think if he knew that every time she let his
metrosexual hands wander on her skin she closed her eyes and thought of
Mohican. She didn't make love to James any more, he was just the conduit for
her fantasy, but when she opened her eyes she was always disappointed to see
his floppy Ivy League haircut and not a rough and ready tuff of hair.
The conversation went on around her but she
was lost in her thoughts. As he looked up at her, she realised her furtive
glances had turned into obvious stares. He caught her looking, curled his top
lip and displayed his middle finger.
‘Such an oik’ said James who'd seen the
display of working-class machismo. ‘Let's go.’
‘Yes’
said Louise picking up her bag and trying to sound like the unfurling finger
had not just stabbed her in the heart.
God
what would Jemima and Johanna think if they knew what Louise was thinking? Maybe
they were thinking the same thing, did all posh girls crave a bit of rough.
Did rough boys crave a bit of posh? Maybe
they did, but no, not this Marxist Mohican rabble rouser. He wasn’t
interested in anything she could offer, all he wanted to do was see her
destruction. He’d made up his mind long ago. She felt James put his long
arms around her. Louise smiled at her James and forgot all about Mohican.
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He’d seen the contempt in her eyes as she’d looked down at him,
appraised him, dismissed him for what she thought he was not for who he was.
Typical fucking upper-middle behaviour, judging a book by its cover, sticking
to their own. Every time he saw her stare at him like that he wanted to …
wanted to what? With her aristocratic roots and her public school education
she’d be first up against the wall come the revolution. She was the enemy but
he knew, god he knew that every time he saw her stare at him like that he
wanted to kiss her, touch her, cherish her. He wanted to breath her in,
explore her, satisfy her. Not that she’d want him to, god no. Sure posh ones
like her probably fantasised about the gardener’s prowess but in reality they
always hooked up with Tarquin, their second cousin once removed. He looked at
her and unfurled his middle finger and enjoyed the look on her boyfriend’s
face as he did so. He hated that floppy hipster hairstyle and those skinny
jeans, what a wanker. But again Tony knew that that deep down that hatred was
mostly jealousy. Jealous that that weed had managed to get the most beautiful
girl in Uni.
That was unfair. Kirsty was just as beautiful, and Tony loved
her. But that posh girl was so sexy whereas sometimes Kirsty forgot she was a
woman. Everything was so ‘right-on’ with her that she had managed to almost
desexualise herself. She had the curves and she had the looks and boy under
the bed clothes she had the moves but to get to them you had to strip of the
metaphorical layers of ideology and the literal layers of baggy shapeless
clothes. Tony was conflicted, he knew the sexualisation of women was the
exploitation of women but he loved to admire those posh stocking clad legs in
those black high-heels.
God what would this crowd of raggle-taggles and hangers on think
if they could read his thoughts? They’d disown him, send him to Coventry,
call him a traitor. It was stupid really, him and his group rallied against
sexism, racism, homophobia but they were quite willing to discriminate on the
grounds of class. Bloody hypocrites they were.
Tony
ran his hand through his Mohican and returned his thoughts to the
conversation going on around him. The posh girl was just a pipe dream, a
fantasy, she’d never give him the time of day. She’d made up her mind about
him long ago. Lets face it was never going to happen and, he smiled at Kirsty,
he didn’t really want it to.
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A new semester, new subjects. Louise felt both excited and
nervous. She’d purposely signed up for courses that the rest of the gang were
not doing. She felt she needed to break out from the clique a little bit. But
it was easy to be brave when choosing courses. In the cold realism of the new
dawn, that bravery had dissipated and now she was wracked with trepidation as
she looked around the seminar room and realised she didn’t know a soul. Eyes
observed her with a mixture of suspicion and contempt. The room was full of
what James would call working class oiks, she stood out like a Londoner in a
village pub. But worse was to come,
she scanned the room and realised that the only free seat was next to Mohican
boy, the object of her desires for most of the first term. She was going to have to sit next to him.
Louise
only realised she hadn’t asked if the seat was free after she sat down. She
was already feeling incredibly self-conscious, and that made it worse. Was
she blushing? She wasn’t sure. She could smell Mohican’s aftershave, it smelt
good. He blanked her completely. She closed her eyes and tried to pretend he
wasn’t there. But she couldn’t do it. He was there, big and strong and very
close.
Fuck
it, she wasn’t going to sit here for an hour feeling uncomfortable. She was
going to talk to him. Challenge him.
‘You
don’t like me very much do you?’
She
hadn’t expected him to be quite so brutally honest.
‘But
you don’t know me.’
‘And
what’s that?’
Louise
was surprised at how angry she felt.
Louise
wanted to be offended but it was true. She did come from a privileged
background.
‘But
that doesn’t define me as a person.’
Why
was he being so aggressive? And why was she so turned on?
‘I
don’t understand you, but I won’t judge you on your background.’
She
could see that that comment had hit home.
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Tony sat slumped in his seat wishing he hadn’t indulged quite so
much the night before. His head felt heavy, his eyes dry and his stomach
fragile. The rest of the gang didn’t
seem to be as badly affected but Tony felt rough as. He flopped into a corner seat hoping no one would take the seat next to him. He was in no fit state to
converse with anyone. He tipped his head back and closed his eyes, a bottle
of coke untouched on the desk in front of him. The sweet, fizzy nectar had the
potential to cure but also to flip his stomach over. But if he was going to
make it through the seminar he badly needed the caffeine and sugar rush.
As he opened the coke he saw her, little miss Posh, scanning the room, looking for a place to sit. God he didn’t want her sitting next to him, not in this state. Little Miss Posh didn’t even ask if she could sit down. Typical, they think they own the bloody world, Tony thought. But Tony felt self-conscious, could she smell the alcohol seeping from his pores? Look at her, he thought, ignoring me, probably thinks I’m beneath her. He tried to hate her but he couldn’t do it, she was beautiful and fragrant and sexy and very close. Christ if he didn’t feel as bad as he did, he would talk to her find out how she ticked.
‘No not really.’
He didn’t really know why he’d said that. He liked her a lot.
‘I know your type.’
Tony was surprised at how bolshie she sounded.
‘Rich, spoilt, selfish, privileged, never done a days work in
your life.’
Perhaps he’d gone a bit over the top. This was not the best chat
up line he’d ever used.
‘Of course it does.’
Why was he being so aggressive when all he wanted to do was kiss
her?
‘Anyway you don’t like me, I’ve seen the way you look at me.’
Ouch that hurt. Too close to home, too near the bone.
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‘Settle down now, So new, semester, new course. Where shall we
start?
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Perfect timing. Now he’d have to sit and stew, reflect on her
comment. He hadn’t had time to hit back. She could tell he was thinking about
it. He wasn’t making notes as the lecturer spoke. She smiled to herself,
she’d got through to him, her words were like an unfurling finger stabbing
him in the heart.
He spoke before she could.
She looked at him for the first time. He was gorgeous.
‘Yes’
She liked that smile.
‘No.’
The frown amused her.
‘Buy me a beer, tonight. Away from here, away from your clique
or mine.’
Looking at him now he looked a little worse for wear.
‘Okay’
‘Gosh I had to sit next to that oik with the Mohican,’ Louise
said as soon as she got back to her friends. ‘What an arsehole he is.’
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Damn, that was not the time for the lecture to start, Tony
thought. He wanted to be able to come back at her. But now he might never get
the chance.
He thought about what she said. He hated it but he knew she was right. Her words were like an unfurling finger stabbing his brain.
‘Okay maybe I’ve judged a book by the cover.’
He’d spoken as soon as the lecture was over.
'Can I buy you coffee?’
He looked at her, she really was very beautiful.
He smiled.
Was she playing games? The last thing he wanted to think about was alcohol. But he smiled at her. ‘Okay.’ he said. You know the Farmer’s Arms? Outside there at 7? ‘Fucking hell what a snob’ Tony said to his mates who’d seen him talking to little miss Posh. ‘Hope I never have to speak to her again. ‘ |
If Louise was perfectly honest, she would have to say she was
disappointed. How churlish was that? She’d just had the best sex in her life
and she was disappointed. The drinks had been unbearable, Tony really was an
oaf, a monster, he came from a different planet, but there was obviously a
sexual tension and she just had to get this oik into bed. She’d expected
rough and ready but she got tender and caring but that didn’t fit the
narrative. She was little miss posh girl sleeping with the gardener. He was
meant to take what he wanted and leave her to go back to the tender caresses
of Mr Darcy. But Tony had put her Mr Darcy in the shade. James treated
foreplay as a necessary chore but Tony obviously viewed it as an art; caressing her body, teasing her, tormenting her. Whereas James always seemed
to be in a rush, for Tony time was not important, he took her to places she’d
never been. But that wasn’t in the script.
Afterwards he didn’t turn the TV on to watch the rugger or pick up his phone to boast to his mates, he held her in his strong arms, stroking her neck and whispered in her ear. Why had she done it? She hated Tony as a person, he hadn’t given her what she’d dreamt of, he’d satisfied her body but not her mind. But knew she’d find herself in his bed again at the first opportunity. |
If Tony was perfectly honest, he would have to say he was
disappointed. How churlish was that? He’d just had sex with the sexiest
looking woman in uni and he was still disappointed. The pub had been hard
work, he’d said he knew her type and he’d been right, she
didn’t have a clue how the real world worked. But there was sexual tension
that he just had to explore. When she ‘accidently’ gave him a flash of her
stocking tops he knew there was no turning back. But he’d learnt a lesson; just because someone dressed like a high class hooker doesn’t mean they act
like one. He’d expected her to take the initiative, to ‘entertain’ him but she had
been shy and passive, wanting Tony to take the lead. His Kirsty was much more
sexually liberated, she understood sex was the coming together of two people,
that is was about mutually beneficial actions, for Louise it was more about
her laying back and letting Tony do the work.He hadn’t expected that. She looked almost surprised when she orgasmed.
Afterwards she was meek and romantic, wanting cuddles and strokes whereas his Kirsty talked dirty to him, bit his ear, tried to get him ready to go again. Why had he done it? He'd hated her personality, didn’t enjoy the sex, felt guilty but he knew that Louise would only have to flash her stockings at him again and he’d jump into her bed. |
Maybe grass is not always greener but we can't resist the temptation to check. Lust wins over common sense. How sad
ReplyDeleteVery original:) and very intersting how different thoughts the two people have - great read
ReplyDeleteGreat story, very interesting :-)
ReplyDeletevery interesting - shows how man's and woman's worlds are different. Look at this sentence: Why had he done it? He'd hated her personality, didn’t enjoy the sex, felt guilty but he knew that Louise would only have to flash her stockings at him again and he’d jump into her bed.
ReplyDeleteI think that for a woman this kind of attraction is not possible - a man is rarely a just sex object - most women fall in love with the man they have had, have or will have sex with:) Most women, maybe not all of them - but I don't really know...:)
Love the double story. Life is so much like this. Can't help but think that if we could always just be ourselves, we'd weed through the riff-raff more efficiently. But hey, that would weed out a lot of the great, twisted stuff too, wouldn't it?
ReplyDeleteWeird--I thought I had written men's and women's worlds...
ReplyDeleteit's not nice to know you are not good enough
ReplyDeleteWell luckily they didn't tell each other :-)
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