Fucking Facebook. Every time I think I have just about got
my life back together, some bastard do-gooder on Facebook upsets the apple
cart, and I spiral down, down, deeper and down.
Let me take you back 2 years, 20th February 2013, Tesco’s car
park, Glynneath.
We’d just done the weekly shopping when Daniel turned to me and told me he was leaving me. There I was with 90 quid’s worth of groceries in my trolley and the boot of the car open and there he was with those saggy jeans walking away and getting in a car with that bitch Stacey from number 73. I took my wedding ring off right there and then and threw it at the car. It made a satisfying ping as it hit the windscreen but they didn’t stop. She just kept driving with my husband in her passenger seat, while my tears fell onto the tarmac and the ice cream melted in one of the bags.
We’d just done the weekly shopping when Daniel turned to me and told me he was leaving me. There I was with 90 quid’s worth of groceries in my trolley and the boot of the car open and there he was with those saggy jeans walking away and getting in a car with that bitch Stacey from number 73. I took my wedding ring off right there and then and threw it at the car. It made a satisfying ping as it hit the windscreen but they didn’t stop. She just kept driving with my husband in her passenger seat, while my tears fell onto the tarmac and the ice cream melted in one of the bags.
To be honest I didn’t miss him, I was glad he was gone. To
start with I thought I missed him but I didn’t, I missed life. There he was
gallivanting around with a bleached-blonde Barbie while I was getting the kids
ready for school and cleaning up their puke.
He was getting some, while I was doing sums. He was having a life while
I was still playing housewife only without the husband.
Anyway I survived; I even started getting smiles off men in
the Post Office. Maybe I wasn’t consigned to a life of loneliness after all. But
then this Facebook nonsense started.
Someone had found my wedding ring in that damn car park and
was desperate to reunite it with its heartbroken
owner.
‘I can only imagine what this poor woman must be going
through separated from her precious wedding ring like that. Please Facebook
friends, share this picture and let’s find the owner.’ She wrote on her wall
alongside a photo of my ring.
Of course this tugs on the heartstrings, everyone assumes
that the narrative the finder has attached to the ring is the truth. It’s what
they want to believe, so they share and share and around once every two weeks
my ring pops up on my news feed, stabbing me in my heart and trampling on my
green shoots of recovery. I contacted her and fair play she took the photo
down, but when a photo goes viral you lose control, so it still pops up time and
time again reminding me of what I had and what I lost. I know she was only trying to help but she’d
got it wrong, so wrong.
The importance of being Gloria
ReplyDeletethis is what i sometimes feel but i would never be able to express it like that:
ReplyDelete"stabbing me in my heart and trampling on my green shoots of recovery"