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I opened my front
door and Beryl almost fell into my arms, I held her for a moment, my nose in
her peroxide hair. She smelt of
cigarettes and gin, a combination I could relate to. Her body felt good next to
mine but I had the feeling she hadn’t come here for that.
‘She’s gone,’ she said into my chest. ‘She’s gone,’ she
repeated. I pushed her away from me holding her at the shoulders. Her eyes were
red and puffy, tear-smudged make up on her face.
‘Who?’ I said.
‘My daughter, she didn’t come home tonight. She always comes
home. She goes for a drink with the girls from work but she’s always home for
her dinner. She told me if she ever disappeared, I should come to you.’ She
collapsed into my chest again and sobbed. I held her in my arms wondering what
she was talking about, who was her daughter? Why would the kid tell her to come
to me? Nothing made sense.
‘Can I make you some tea?’ I asked her. She nodded her head
and I managed to manoeuvre her into the living room and lower her onto the sofa
before going to the kitchen and putting the kettle on, then I lit two
cigarettes and handed one to Beryl. She took a long drag, her eyes closed and
her face pale. I went back to the kitchen and made the tea, I was suddenly very
aware that I wanted the tea to be as good as the tea she made me.
She cupped her mug in her hands, looking at me silently,
begging me to say something that would calm her fears. But my problem was, I
had no idea what was causing her fears.
‘Tell me the story again.’ I said.
‘My daughter, she’s been acting strangely, said it was time
to make a difference. She told me she had found out you were working for people
who she wanted to work for too. She swore me to secrecy.’
‘You’re Bethan’s mother?’ The penny finally dropped, I’d
been thinking she was talking about a 12 year old, but I gradually saw a
resemblance as she spoke. But surely Beryl wasn’t old enough.
‘Yes, I was young when I had her,’ she said.
I was trying to do the maths, Beryl was about my age, Bethan
about 24 / 25. That would have made Beryl 17/18 when she had Bethan. I supposehat
could make sense.
‘17’. She’d read my mind. ‘Why do you think I’m a tea
woman?’ Her voice was defensive. I shrugged, I was obviously judging her with
my eyes without meaning to. Or maybe she
was just paranoid from years of explaining.
‘Who are you?’ she asked. ‘And what have they done with
Bethan?’ I shrugged again and looked around for my ciggies, they were in the
kitchen. I got up to get them, we both needed the comfort of nicotine.
I wandered over to the window, the night was still quiet,
the demons still hidden. I was deciding how much to tell the woman sobbing on
my sofa, she deserved an explanation but I had to be careful. Maybe this was
the trap. It didn’t feel like a trap, but then traps rarely do.
I looked at the reflection of Beryl, I’d often wondered
about getting her back here, never thought it would come true and now it had I
wished it hadn’t. I decided to pay dumb. I could tell her nothing but still
help her find out what had happened to Bethan.
The radio has just played a song about Beryl by Mark Knopfler :-)
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